sixteen

My darling boys,

You are sixteen years young today! I feel just yesterday we celebrated your 15th birthday, a year just went so quick.

I can’t believe that you are 16 today, no way! There’s time that I wish you were still little boys in kindy or primary. Those times were sweet and gold. You were so cute, still so naughty and mischievous, but you would not argue and backchat to me or your Dad. You didn’t think that we were stupid and knew nothing about everything.

I know what you really want to do on this day that you turn 16. You can’t wait to go to the post office to get your Learner plate! And from this day, my worry about you two add on. I guess I just need to chill, like you always tell me, and do more yoga and invest in expensive anti-wrinkle anti-aging skincare that your Dad will never tell the difference. Oh wait, he’ll know the difference once he checks his bank account balance.

If you ask me and if I can be honest, I don’t like this teenager stage of your life. I wish I could fast forward it. I find you two are so challenging to handle. Sometimes it’s too much for me. Maybe, because I spend too much time looking on people’s updates on social media about how perfect their children are, how sporty and motivated and all the goody goody stuff. I know, I always tell you don’t compare your life to others, especially from Facebook/Instagram posts. Because those platforms only for beautiful perfect images. People won’t post their dirty laundry online, will they?

So much for the preach mama! Today is about you two, my precious, my world, my everything. I won’t replace you with other kids, don’t you worry boys. Because my love for you both is bigger than my ego. I love you no matter what has happened, what you have done, what you will do. I will always love you, my sons.

I love you enough to fight for you (mostly with your teachers), compromise for you, and sacrifice myself for you two if needed. Enough to believe in you, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in your strength and to never give up on you. I love you both the most.

Happy birthday my darling boys! Wishing you the happiest day filled with all the love and the light. You came into this world on this day and lit it on fire. You are so very special. Happy birthday, enjoy your timtam cheesecake as always requested by you for your birthday.

Happy birthday!

Love,

Your crazy mum!